I only have one choice and that is to forgive.” “The damage is done, Hussein will never be here. Janna Ezat, whose son Hussein Al-Umari was killed, looked at Tarrant and spoke softly. One said nothing less than the death penalty would be fair. Some speakers raised their voices in anger when they addressed the gunman. “I’m still searching for my husband’s beautiful face in the crowds, but he’s nowhere to be seen,” she said. When they took over, she said, she held her husband’s warm hands until they dropped. When paramedics arrived, she said, they told her to push on the bullet hole to lessen the bleeding, but her hands kept slipping with all the blood. But it was her husband of 36 years, Musa, who was shot in the back.